The result reads like a celebrity memoir infused with The Bell Jar and Going Clear. With little preamble - Madison and her collaborator, Leslie Bruce, know what the reader came for - Down the Rabbit Hole tells the story of Madison's time with Hefner from 2001 to 2008 and its aftermath. It's safe to say that after the revelations in Madison's just-released Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, she has successfully squashed any such questions in the future. 'I was like, can't you see I'm doing so much better on my own?' 'Women would come up to me, and say, 'Don't you miss the mansion?' Or, 'I'm sorry Hef didn't marry you,'' Madison recalled during a recent interview with BuzzFeed News at her home on a tree-lined Los Angeles street. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams-and finding the life we deserve.Holly Madison decided to write a book when she was excelling in her career - starring in the long-running Peepshow in Las Vegas at Planet Hollywood, as well as her own E! reality show Holly's World - and yet fans would not stop asking her about Hugh Hefner and her time as his girlfriend in the Playboy Mansion. With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.īut instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all-and quickly became her nightmare.

But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion-including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years-quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion-and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key-from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next DoorĪ spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend.

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